Saturday, April 30, 2011

My Fancover

So recently, I really like to do some song cover.
I recorded all of it using my phone, so the voice is quite.umm..weird ?
And soo, I also share my songcover through mediafire.
This is what I called experience, so feel free to download and comment.
Thanks! :)
Link:

Tegomass - Moshimo kono sekai kara OO ga nakunattara: http://www.mediafire.com/?7wk3bg5sxxd5dgb

Yabu Kota - My Everything: http://www.mediafire.com/?d8rsw7w7y6j37ag

NYC - Yume Tamago: http://www.mediafire.com/?rjmaj277ygzka1z

Chinen Yuri - Ookiku nare boku: http://www.mediafire.com/?wegtmunab9dy5t6

When a girl can't hold back her feelings.....................

Okeh, pertama, entry ini dibuat karena gw akhir-akhir ini, atau bahkan..3 bulan terakhir ini sering banget galau + sedih.
Alasan: temen gw, yang dulu pernah gw cerita itu, yang gw panggil Yuta itu, beberapa bulan yang lalu ngedeaktif fb dia karena suatu masalah. Setelah dia aktifin fb nya lagi, dia mulai berubah.

Apa masalahnya ke gw ?

Perubahan itu bener2 ngeffect banget ke gw karena sampe sekarang, dia bener-bener nyuekin gw, atau bahkan lupain, ato lebih parah lagi mungkin dia benci gw.
Wall gw, message gw, ato apapun yang gw kirim sia-sia. Mungkin dibaca juga ga, gw gatau. Tapi biasanya, dia bakal setidaknya bales wall gw pas dia ol. Selama 3 bulan terakir ini, dia bener-bener nyuekin gw parah.
Kayak tiap hari gw mikirin gw salah apa ke dia, ato gw pernah ngomong apa ke dia, tapi gw ga merasa salah ato gimana. Tapi tetep aja, walopun temen gw udah nanyain ke dia, apakah dia lagi benci ama orang ato ga, dia jawab ga. Gw jadi mikir, sebenrnya dia tuh sengaja ngehindarin gw, ato disuruh, ato apa gw gatau.

Gw jadi takut buka fb begitu tau dia ol tanpa bales wall ato message gw. Kayak sekarang, gw ragu-ragu nutup tab fb gw ato ga. Yaa gw tau gw ga gitu deket banget ama dia, tapi setidaknya gw pengen ngobrol ama dia, maksud gw, setidaknya gw ga dicuekin ato gimana. Gw emang selalu berharap dibales, berharap suatu hari kayak gw bisa tiap kali ngobrol ama dia dll.

Bulan December 2010 itu sebenernya bikin gw makin berharap, sampai akhirnya gw sedih sendiri gara-gara gw terlalu berharap ama dia. Atau mungkin emang dia udah lupain gw, karena emang gw itu cuman passing by di profile fb dia, say hi, ato nanya-nanya sesuatu yang mungkin menurut dia hal yang ga penting.
Atau mungkin gw menyadari satu kesalahan gw, yaitu pas dia ol, di deket-deket dia off, gw baru kirim wall. Gw ngerti mungkin emang dia udah off, jadi dia ga baca wall gw ato gimana. Tapi seterusnya, sampe message dll bener-bener ga dibales sampe gw serem sendiri liat wall-wall sama message yang gw kirim ke dia tuh bejibun. Gw berasa kayak stalker dia ato terlihat banget gw bener-bener pengen dibales.
Pertama-tama gw emang berharap gw dibales biar kita bisa ngobrol trus kayak waktu itu.
Tapi sekarang tujuan gw ngirim wall ato message, sebenrnya gw pengen tau, dia tuh masih nyuekin gw ato ga, ato dia sengaja ga bales, ato emang dia ga liat gara-gara wall gw ketimpa wall yang lain.
Jujur gw merasa dia sengaja ato emang ga mau ngomong ama gw lagi.

Gw ga enak ama temen gw, kayak di setiap chat, gw bakal ngomong kalo gw tuh sedih gara-gara dia, galau gara-gara dia. Yang follow twitter gw juga kadang-kadang ato sering banget gw ngetweet 'miss him' 'miss you so much' dan lain lain itu sebenernya buat dia. Kayak, gw bener-bener takut dia benci gw. Gw ga papa jarang dibales ama dia, asal bener-bener ga dicuekin ato bahkan selama 3 bulan ini ga dibales ama dia.
Liat dia di video, denger dia nyanyi dll, rasanya gw merasa kalo gw emang mungkin gabakal deket, ketemu, apalagi sering ngobrol ama dia. Gw cuman bisa ngidolain dia, cuman sebatas gitu aja.

Tiap hari gw masih mikir, apa salah gw ke dia sampe kayak gitu, gw bahkan sering berdoa biar masalah ini selese, biar gw bisa liburan tenang, seneng, tanpa pikiran ato gimana. Gw tau sebenernya konyol banget buat mikirin kenapa gw ga dibales ama dia ato gimana, tapi gw masih terus kepikiran kenapa bisa kayak gitu jadinya.

Oke, gw akhirnya curhat di blog atas saran temen gw. Tapi gw bener-bener berharap, semua bakal balik ke awal, kayak December 2010 itu, pas hari gw ngobrol ama dia, pas gw at least bisa contact ama dia. Oke gw super lebay, tapi begitulah isi perasaan sama pikiran gw sekarang. Lebay, galau, sedih, ga bisa dideskripsiin.
Sekian curhat galau gw ditengah  malam 1 May 2011, 1.00 AM


The sakura of love will never, in the soil of this heart, bloom again
but,
Once more, some day,
I'll walk down that path
to sow another flower.



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Currently:
Listening to: Ai no Hana - Ueda Tatsuya
Mood: sad

Thursday, April 28, 2011

HI THERE FREEDOM !

Hi there everyone! I'm back from all the hellish daaaaaay!
Today my national exams just finished XD it means i just have to wait until my graduation day~
Yay for that :)

Anyway, I keep updating with my fandom too. From JUMP until Arashi nee~
OH and now I knew most of Johnny's Juniors' names who usualy appeared in some concert and performance. Also, I starting like this Junior group called HIP HOP JUMP. About them, I think their dance are cool and they're great singers too. Johnny should debut them soon *with bi shadow too of course*
HHJ
My ichiban in Hip Hop Jump is Jesse Lewis :3 *the right one in below* and also Tanaka Juri *the middle one in below* wish they can get their solo songs soon!

Just now, I realized that I don't have any concert goodies from my fandoms ._. so now I'm thinking to buy JUMP's Spring Concert uchiwas (the Daiki and Chinen one). What do you think ? Should I buy it or nooot ._.

As I look that I usually just took many videos from LJ, I'm thinking to be in one of subs team actually. I wanna be uploader, cause I can't even translate anything T_T but I already told my mom that I wanna take Japanese courseeee :3

Okay, every paragraphs that I wrote in this entry don't have any relation at all. Sorry for the random entry, but I'm just happy that finally I can update my blog again.
Ah yeah, abiut the new banner that I love so much was made by my friend nee~ Credits to gabmaria_quincy :)

Last but not least, thanks fro those who reads my blog and also followed me here and twitter :3
Hope I can spread more love and piece (?) XD
Jaa~
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Currently:
Listening to: w/o notice - Kamenashi Kazuya
Downloading: Arashi's SCENE Concert Tour
Mood: happy to the maaaax!